After almost twenty years of living a shamanic life, you’d think I’d have a better handle on dealing with the constant Death & Rebirth cycles that are a permanent fixture of such a life.
…Nope!
The thing is that as soon as you clear one set of fears and issues, so you think you’re done, things arise literally out of the wallpaper - those areas that blend into the wallpaper, that you don’t really see because you think it’s a permanent, unshakable, essential component of the very structure of the Universe. In other words, those safety nets that you believe you can depend on and lean against for support.
The good news is that you are the only permanence in the Universe. The Universe has so much love for you, and so much faith in you, that it layer by layer peels away everything that is not you in order to reveal the glory of your true being.
It still sucks, though. When seen and felt through the filter of duality mindedness, it can be interpreted as a test or even punishment.
But as I realized this past week, it’s not so much a ‘tough love’ thing, like throwing a kid into the lake to teach them how to swim, as it is removing the training wheels, which haven’t touched the ground for a long time, or my favorite image - that of Dumbo dropping the magic feather to find out he’d been flying under his own power the whole time.
It does still suck.
